Dark times shall soon pass...

I feel like this year has had many problems and although it was a big learning experience...it was still very difficult. I am thankful, however, to still be alive and kicking. One thing I believe, is that it's always darkest before dawn. Since things have been getting gloomier lately, I feel the long awaited sunrise will come at last. Have a happy new year everybody!

♥Kay♥

changes over time

So I've been going through old blogs and I've realized just how much I've changed through out the time. It's so amazing! How going from one obsession to another and learning to deal with my emotions and how to express them in a positive way. It's so COOL! although I think back on all the mistakes I've made and all the stupid things I've done and I feel almost sorta regret. Oh well. I'll get over it.

Black is an amazing color. So is pink. Together they are perfection :)

Speech tomorrow. *sigh* I can only hope for the best!

♥Kay♥

Sad poems part 1

WARNING: Yes, they are sad poems. I don't always feel this way and I'm fine. Dont worry about me, I just want an opinion or two on the quality. thank you!

I try writing happy poems, but they all suck. So here are my really super sad poems. Some of them are really old, some are new. I'm going in order from the ones I like the most to my least liked. If I hate them, they aren't going here.

1)
scratch & scribble,
down the words go,
somewhere to put the anger,
because I can't let it show.

2)
the memories, the fear,
the pain to bear,
all for me to know,
the tears try not to show,
collecting up in my eyes,
counting all the lies,
all the times that weren't real.

3)
emotions, feelings,
written down,
the world can see,
no smile, no frown.

4)
P eople oriented
A nger beyond reason
I nner feelings with no meaning
N owhere to run to

5) {iffy on this one}
the hole in her heart aches,
the tears in her eyes burn,
her knuckles white like the sink,
the anger deep in her stomach,
the boy who broke her heart,
will love no longer.

6)
beauty, pleasing to the heart,
helps it heal,
put together what fell apart.

Soooo that's what I have so far, that's complete, of course. I'm still working on a few that I think will be better. I'm sorry that they are all sad but, you know, it's still good poetry.....or at least I hope. lol :) hope you enjoyed! thanks for reading.

♥Kay♥

Mmmmbahhhh

bah. I can not help how it is I feel. Can fate not take this heart to seal, it up and make everything alright? I see the path but know no light. In time I learn to wander and stray, mixed in with light and time of day why do I feel such passion for one? Can't I burn up in the eternal sun? I'm sick in that I know no pain and won't listen to those that give me strain. I ignore all signs telling me no. I can't leave, don't make me go. I care too much to leave now, I'll die here just tell me how. Leave my mind and go to rest, I'll save my thoughts for the best. Prove to me you want me all, tell me it, the big and small. Don't let me walk away and leave, keep me here this autumnal eve. Show me that which makes you tick, beating my heart with a drumstick. Take my pain away and flee, far away I'll run with glee. Get me out and help me run, before this day is over and done. I can't leave, don't make me go.

BLAHHHHHHHHHH
Go away! Get out of my mind. Before I start writing more poems that make no sense! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrawr!
Hehe :)

♥Kay♥

Test

Okay so out of all the teacher's classes I was the only 100% on the
science test. I love being a nerd. <3

♥Kay♥

dammit

She never ceases to amaze me. *sigh* I'm still revelling from it. Oh well it was great to see so many people at church today. As it always is and forever shall be. I'm just so happy and pleased. Where there's a will, there's a way and God will make it happen. I firmly believe in that. :D Have a great day everybody!!

Awesome

Today was one of those awesome days. It wasn't perfect but just awesome. I am such a nerd, I LOVE IT! I ace quizzes, fix problems, and get the highest or second grade of the class. I'm such a nerd it's so awesome. :D people only wish they were so smart. My mo should be proud so should my dad. YAY me!!!! Woot woot!

♥Kay♥