8 more days

until graduation. 7 more days until Great America.

I haven't done much to blog on here about. I'm too tired to care really, there isn't anything going on and I just want school to be over with. I need summer. I need something to pass the time. I need something to keep me going on my school work. I'm slipping. I don't think I care anymore, there's no reason to. School doesn't matter anymore, I want it to be over with. There are so many things I plan on doing in the summer I want to go out there and do them. I want an open schedule, I don't want some office telling me I need to be here and here and this and this a time. It's not fair, it's not right, I think the entire school system is messed up. Who ever created it, didn't have his or her thinking cap on straight. Actually I think it was twisted and put on backwards so tight that they had permanent brain damage. No teenager in their right mind would want to wake up at 7 in the morning or earlier.

GRRRR, what's the use of complaining? I need to do something about this, it's inhibiting so many students from doing the best work possible. I almost fall asleep in Algebra every morning. lol

whatev.

4 more days until Sunday
3 people I can't stop thinking about
2 more weeks until the picnic
1 slowing slipping mind


My mind set is so far off, it makes Pluto look close to the sun.

Wow, Thursday sucks

Sad really, almost depressing. IDK stupid memories. I hate the sun. I love the rain. It should rain more often. I think I would like to spend at least one spring in Washington state. They have so much rain there it makes us look like a desert, or well, so I've heard.
I'm tired. I hate being bored. I hate waiting. I just wish school would be over with. There is 11 more days & I need to graduate soon or I'm going to lose it. I will go crazy.
June 6th is the church picnic and I can't wait for it. I want to see everyone again.
Heck if Sunday would just get here faster I think I could make it.
Yeahhhh
I finally got around to changing the name of my blog. lol my birthday was like weeks ago.
Yes, it takes more muscles to frown then it does smile. So I guess I should frown more often and work the face muscles, lol.
I can wiggle my ears
I can flare my nose.
It was funny, last year people were showing off the fact that they could flare their noses and I couldn't because I never knew it was possible so I stared at myself in a mirror for like 15 minutes and willed myself to do it. Lmao, it finally worked and BAM now I can do it. Smart little me.

Yes, smart, short, little, goody two shoes, uptight, overprotective, offensive, me.

or something like that.



Oh, and I made it into colorguard.

I just don't know

BULL! BULL BULL BULL IT'S ALL A BUNCH OF BULL!

Okay no it's not. I am very close to tears right now so you know what has happened. I really don't think I need to explain. I am going to end up crying for a good part of the night so don't expect me to be on anything a lot.

On the 26th of April too. The day right before my birthday. Oh how many tears I shall shed. Hopefully that day that we planned for the park will stay the same. We can invite all of the people who would come now and just make it a closed picnic instead of one open to the public. Maybe we can see everyone together again. I don't know, I just don't know.

I don't want to lose my family and I don't want to lose the people I love. I can't stand the thought of it. It's too much to bear. How did this happen? Could no one see the signs? We all just chose to ignore it and look where we ended up.


Why won't it rain?
Kay

P.S. I don't doubt that this isn't God's fault. He hasn't done anything wrong. It is the people that have caused this church family great pain & now with the fact that we are more then likely going to split to multiple churches scares me. I know that God isn't the accused and He has done nothing to me except love and care for me so I am not mad at Him. No, I am mad at myself & at the upper boss people. They should have told us earlier!!!!!