♥Kay♥
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Dark times shall soon pass...
Friday, December 18, 2009
changes over time
Black is an amazing color. So is pink. Together they are perfection :)
Speech tomorrow. *sigh* I can only hope for the best!
♥Kay♥
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Sad poems part 1
I try writing happy poems, but they all suck. So here are my really super sad poems. Some of them are really old, some are new. I'm going in order from the ones I like the most to my least liked. If I hate them, they aren't going here.
1)
scratch & scribble,
down the words go,
somewhere to put the anger,
because I can't let it show.
2)
the memories, the fear,
the pain to bear,
all for me to know,
the tears try not to show,
collecting up in my eyes,
counting all the lies,
all the times that weren't real.
3)
emotions, feelings,
written down,
the world can see,
no smile, no frown.
4)
P eople oriented
A nger beyond reason
I nner feelings with no meaning
N owhere to run to
5) {iffy on this one}
the hole in her heart aches,
the tears in her eyes burn,
her knuckles white like the sink,
the anger deep in her stomach,
the boy who broke her heart,
will love no longer.
6)
beauty, pleasing to the heart,
helps it heal,
put together what fell apart.
Soooo that's what I have so far, that's complete, of course. I'm still working on a few that I think will be better. I'm sorry that they are all sad but, you know, it's still good poetry.....or at least I hope. lol :) hope you enjoyed! thanks for reading.
♥Kay♥
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Mmmmbahhhh
BLAHHHHHHHHHH
Go away! Get out of my mind. Before I start writing more poems that make no sense! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrawr!
Hehe :)
♥Kay♥
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Test
science test. I love being a nerd. <3
♥Kay♥
Sunday, October 18, 2009
dammit
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Awesome
♥Kay♥
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
Hi peeps
to type sideways with my iPod I think it might have been worth the
stupid $10 I had to pay :(
Yeah anyway last night was amazing for no particular reason.
And I absolutely loved it. I felt amazingly great, maybe it was an
adrenaline rush or something but anywho, I can't wait! Angie's party
tomorrow, I'm not sure what I'm doing Sunday, and Monday is the beach!
Bye peeps!
♥Kay♥
Monday, June 8, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
Ohohoh!
I have seen and chatted with so many wonderful people! I am having a ball!
Speaking of ball my yarn is ready!!! Oh I'm so excited!!!!!!!! It should be here in a few days give or take some. Ohhhh but I'm so ready to see it! Yes I am!! Woot
♥Kay♥
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
8 more days
I haven't done much to blog on here about. I'm too tired to care really, there isn't anything going on and I just want school to be over with. I need summer. I need something to pass the time. I need something to keep me going on my school work. I'm slipping. I don't think I care anymore, there's no reason to. School doesn't matter anymore, I want it to be over with. There are so many things I plan on doing in the summer I want to go out there and do them. I want an open schedule, I don't want some office telling me I need to be here and here and this and this a time. It's not fair, it's not right, I think the entire school system is messed up. Who ever created it, didn't have his or her thinking cap on straight. Actually I think it was twisted and put on backwards so tight that they had permanent brain damage. No teenager in their right mind would want to wake up at 7 in the morning or earlier.
GRRRR, what's the use of complaining? I need to do something about this, it's inhibiting so many students from doing the best work possible. I almost fall asleep in Algebra every morning. lol
whatev.
4 more days until Sunday
3 people I can't stop thinking about
2 more weeks until the picnic
1 slowing slipping mind
My mind set is so far off, it makes Pluto look close to the sun.
Yay!
Woohoo!
Yeah
All things come in 3's
Let's see 1...2... Where's 3?
♥Kay♥
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Wow, Thursday sucks
I'm tired. I hate being bored. I hate waiting. I just wish school would be over with. There is 11 more days & I need to graduate soon or I'm going to lose it. I will go crazy.
June 6th is the church picnic and I can't wait for it. I want to see everyone again.
Heck if Sunday would just get here faster I think I could make it.
Yeahhhh
I finally got around to changing the name of my blog. lol my birthday was like weeks ago.
Yes, it takes more muscles to frown then it does smile. So I guess I should frown more often and work the face muscles, lol.
I can wiggle my ears
I can flare my nose.
It was funny, last year people were showing off the fact that they could flare their noses and I couldn't because I never knew it was possible so I stared at myself in a mirror for like 15 minutes and willed myself to do it. Lmao, it finally worked and BAM now I can do it. Smart little me.
Yes, smart, short, little, goody two shoes, uptight, overprotective, offensive, me.
or something like that.
Oh, and I made it into colorguard.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Change
♥Kay♥
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Colorguard
Right now in panther time and bored as all get out!!!
♥Kay♥
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Perfect yarn
When I get it, in about a month or two, I will take and post pictures but until then we shall all wait.
Her website is www.sisyarn.com so don't be afraid to check it out.
With love,
♥Kay♥
Tatting
♥Kay♥
Monday, April 6, 2009
Who Am I?
A daughter,
A sister,
A best friend,
A student,
A supporter,
A learner,
A teacher,
A confused teen,
A bad influence,
An honor roll "mega-nerd",
A dog lover,
A church/God obsessed freak,
A spunky, outgoing rocker,
And an imperfect human being.
I am Kay Murillo and that's all I will ever be.
I am who I am & that's all I am.
♥Kay♥
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Headache
Monday, March 30, 2009
Sad Poem
But first, an anagram like thing.
People-oriented
Anger beyond reason
Inner feelings with no meaning
Nowhere to run to
100th post
*woot woot* My 100th post. Pretty cool I guess. Idk, depends on how you look at it. Everything depends on how you look at it. Like this part of a poem. Well I guess it's a poem but it's freeverse and barely makes any sense. It's not finished yet & I'm probably not going to finish it either just because it's kind of confusing and requires me to be in the same mood I was at the time of writing it, in which I'm not in sooooo...
WARNING: don't read if your in a good mood & don't think this is somehow about me. It's not.
hatred, fear, pain, hurt,
sorrow, depression, sadness, guilt,
we hide the feelings that turn us insane,
we cover this with a smile not felt.
we show no fear to anyone,
for their thoughts didn't matter anyway,
we cover it all with shows and things
pretend it didn't happen,
lose the memories.
hopes, dreams, courage, happiness,
all go together like leaves on a plant,
they stick around forever and always,
until some one comes and plucks it off
alone it dies.
sad, apart, and alone.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
I just don't know
Okay no it's not. I am very close to tears right now so you know what has happened. I really don't think I need to explain. I am going to end up crying for a good part of the night so don't expect me to be on anything a lot.
On the 26th of April too. The day right before my birthday. Oh how many tears I shall shed. Hopefully that day that we planned for the park will stay the same. We can invite all of the people who would come now and just make it a closed picnic instead of one open to the public. Maybe we can see everyone together again. I don't know, I just don't know.
I don't want to lose my family and I don't want to lose the people I love. I can't stand the thought of it. It's too much to bear. How did this happen? Could no one see the signs? We all just chose to ignore it and look where we ended up.
Why won't it rain?
Kay
P.S. I don't doubt that this isn't God's fault. He hasn't done anything wrong. It is the people that have caused this church family great pain & now with the fact that we are more then likely going to split to multiple churches scares me. I know that God isn't the accused and He has done nothing to me except love and care for me so I am not mad at Him. No, I am mad at myself & at the upper boss people. They should have told us earlier!!!!!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Love
It spreads quickly throughout us,
Love is a liar,
We feel what we know is wrong,
Love is like pain,
You will never go a day without it,
Love is like rain,
One minute the skies are clear and it looks like there's no hope and the next you're being poured on,
and we all take it for granted. We live on through each day and go through the motions, through the feelings. We don't stop and tell the people we care about the most how much they mean to us. We don't tell them that we love them.
We care, we pray, we hope, but do we really love? How do we show this then? What can we do to prove our love for them? We can't. God will give us a time to do this, we just need to be open & ready for it. It's difficult to know when this is happening. However, this is only my perception of love.
Love is a special word that always means something different to each individual. I can't tell you what love is, I can't show you what love is like, all I can do is give you my interpretation.
I love many people in my life with a deep passion, one of family, but closer. They are called my friends and I truly don't think they know just how much I love them. I would sacrifice my life for any and all of the them. I love them all, but I don't think they know how much.
& it's very likely that they never will.
I wish it would rain.
Kay
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Show
♥Kay♥
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Metaphor for thought
Where will you go? What path will you follow?
In any of these paths, Jesus is with us as He always is.
RESULTS:
Our human nature tells us to take the left path, the smooth earth and many footsteps tell us it is safe. This path also takes us twice as long to get to the end because half of the time we don't realize who we are with or where we are going.
The right path is much harder. We must face all of the challenges before us but we see others who have done it before. It gives us strength and courage to go on.
We, of course, could always make a new path. This is much harder but very rewarding. This path allows us not to follow Jesus, but walk beside him. Fighting to make new footsteps so one day, maybe some one else, can get just a little bit farther.
♥Kay♥
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
On my journey through life...
Okay don't ask, I felt like being all author-ish right now. Hopefully it worked, maybe I'll inspire some one. But until then it's a cute little paragraph.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Thoughts, I have too many of them
I overthink things, especially the actions of people. Rawr
I overwonder about people, esp. my church family. (some people are like songs, they might be really cetchy but when you can't get them out of your head they get pretty annoying no matter how awesome they are)
I overinterpret things, esp. the thoughts of people.
I overwant things, esp. the attention of people.
I overneed things, all I should need is God. Seriously
Yeah
Way, way, too much time. I need to get out more >.<
But you know, if people lived closer to me I wouldn't be having this problem. Or even if people were just able to stay over more that would be cool.
Rawr
Rawr
Rawr
Rawr
I'm confused...
I'm tired...
I'm hurt...
I wonder...
Quiz
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