Trenchmouth - Rasputina

Yeah, he was a big landowner.
He was a bad mouthbreather.
But you can see his station wagon stand alone.
Woulda, coulda, we should have known.

He was a failed cropduster.
I am his little sister.
He was a whistleblower for the F.D.A.
Maybe was them sent him away.
He was a football player.
He didn't have a lot to say.

That guy's a lousy actor.
He was a hard-core cracker.
He wore a trenchcoat and he waved that Dixie flag.
But he's my brother, so I brag.
Don't be no dark naysayer.
So they all said he was a fag.

He had a really big TrenchMouth
When we were living way down South.
He had a really big TrenchMouth.

He had a really big TrenchMouth
When we were living way down South.
He had a really big TrenchMouth.

It's on the edge of nowhere.
No way for them to go there.
I know I'm not much help, but here is where I'll stay.
I'm hoping they'll find him some day.
I should put up some flyers.
Can you think of another way?

He had a really big TrenchMouth
When we were living way down South.
Then he up and disappeared.
He just left his car up here.

He had a really big TrenchMouth
When we were living way down South.
He had a really big TrenchMouth.

Nobody seems to know why he
Would disappear just leaving me here.
On a dirty hill for all time
Me and the pine tree that I stand behind.

He had a really big TrenchMouth
When we were living way down South.
He had a really big TrenchMouth. 

Because typing is easier than writing

Often times, I scare myself with the poems I write. This is one of
those poems I discovered in one of books. I barely remember writing
it, but I know it's mine.

In the Dark
In the dark, you'll find the hurt and pain,
The watchers of life standing in the rain,
They watch the world spin, taking in it all,
All they've done, what they did, to let themselves fall.
As they did before & the ones before them,
Passed through generations like a heritage gem.
Sorrow fills their hearts, inside and out.
No fear, no hope, little but doubt.

In the dark you'll find an audience ready to view,
The coming end of the world and you.
They stand aside to rest and wait,
For the day you join their silence and hate.
Some want to know you, want to be freed,
But you turn your heads, out of shame and greed.
Won't help us, won't touch us, won't even look,
But you read about us in your paper or book.
Won't talk to us, feed us, not one little bit,
Thinking we're nothing, no mind, no wit.

We were you once, when our lives were okay.
We had family & friends, enough food & pay.
But look what's happened, now it's all done and said.
The tears are dried, no more bloodshed.
You wouldn't help us, now only few live.
We begged & pleaded, nothing to give.
Well I can't wait to see you here with the few of us left,
Relying on garbage, donations, and theft.
Can't wait to see how much you'll cry,
When we take our time to enjoy watching you die.

In the dark is where I am, where I'll stay,
To live my life out...what's left, anyway.

♥Kay♥

Robin's Jar

Once we found a robin
In our backyard
It was already dead
But we were so sure
That things weren't gone too far
So we prayed to God above
That He'd bring it back to us
And we put it in a jar
And waited, and waited
But mama made us bury it
Mama made us bury it
In the backyard
I wished to be just like my best friend
She was the brightest star in the room
Yeah but we didn't know what we had
With the world pressing in
On our backyard
She fell in backwards
She fell in backwards
With the world pressing in
On our backyard
She fell in backwards
We prayed to God above
That He'd bring her back to us
So we put her in a box
We put her in a box
And waited
For something to happen
But nothing happened
But mama made me bury her
Mama made me bury her
Mama made me bury her in the backyard

Stay strong

Stay strong
My dear friend
In your time of woe
Hold strong
My dear friend
Dont let go

♥Kay♥

Faerie wings

I'm dedicated. I am going to make these wings. I just need to find a design and get all the materials. Which might be painful but you know, it will work.

♥Kay♥

Hunter's Kiss - Rasputina

Here's the sad story

About a deer and a man.

A romantic scene from a lullaby.
In a clearing green, where his eyes met mine.
I was frozen motion. Oh! His bow was raised.
Then the fleeting notion - that my life he'd save.

But I saw it coming, flying through the air.
Feathered backside humming. Miss me, hit me where
Where it will only hurt me, not a mortal wound.
Leave me lying dirty, someone would find me soon.

I have never been like this before.
Felt my body sinking to the grassy floor.
No, I have never known a love like this.
Felt the flaming arrows of the Hunter's Kiss.

My life is not mine.
Like a dog or a wife.
He has taken his time.
He has taken my life.

I could see the steaming of his cloudy breath.
No, I was not dreaming. I was next to death.
As I lay there twitching, then my legs he tied.
There was nothing was missing on the day I died.

I have never been like this before.
Felt my body sinking to the grassy floor.
I have never known a love like this.
Felt the flaming arrows of the Hunter's Kiss.

No, I have never been like this before.
Never felt my body sinking to the Earth's grassy floor.
No, I have never known a love like this.
Never felt the flaming arrows of the lonely Hunter's Kiss.

Opheliac - Emilie Autumn

I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feigned confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was too unstable
You might have seen the end

But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
It's the Opheliac in me

I'm your Opheliac
My stockings prove my virtues
I'm open to attack
But I don't want to hurt you
Whether I swim or sink
That's no concern of yours now
How could you possibly think

You had the power to know how
To keep me breathing 
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
It's the Opheliac in me

Studies Show... 
Intelligent girls are more depressed
Because they know
What the world is really like
Don't think for a beat it makes it better
When you sit her down and tell her
Everything's gonna all right
She knows in society she either is
A devil or an angel with no in between
She speaks in third person
So she can forget that she's me

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
But never doubt

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be

I only hope that in the end you will see

Momma Was an Opium Smoker

Momma Was an Opium Smoker
Rasputina

Momma was an opium smoker
She'd light it with a red hot poker
She would never take a bath
We would ask her, she'd just laugh
Because our momma was an opium smoker.

She made it with this gentleman, Lincoln.
They met on a boat, it was sinking.
When she shoulda gone overboard, momma say "No way, oh my Lord,
only of opium smoke am I thinkin'."

Oh, help us, Lord.
We can't afford
Destructive ways.
You oughta' hear what she says!

She would just sit on her fat ass
Yell at us, "fill up my wine glass!"
She would tell us, "How sad,
You won't never know your dad."
Oh yeah, my momma was an opium smoker.

Go, mommy, go
Uh huh, uh huh, uh huh, uh huh

She'd hide the money and the drugs in the mattress.
I wonder how long she been at this
And I say, "Mom, bang the gong, can't you see it's gone all wrong?"
But momma was an opium smoker.

♥Kay♥

Transylvanian Concubine

If you want to know how
To fly high, then go now
To the place where all the concubines...
Meet and converse with them
Marvel at their pale skin
Wonder how they chew on their pointy...
Teeth and hair are beauty
They know it's their duty
To be countess in their hearts and their...
Minds that have to whisper
See in them a sister
Look into their eyes and you'll become
Transylvanian Concubine.
You know what flows there like wine.
Stay here with us, it's just time.
Transylvanian Concubine.
Sorrow is their master
Cackling with laughter
Now he's having just one piece of...
Cakey is their make-up
Catholics try to shake up
All the things that form their lives, but
they're...
Dead, their sighs, their songs
They know what they do is wrong.
Stay here with us, it's just time.
Transylvanian Concubine.
Candelabra's lighted
Satan has been sighted
Never has there been an evening like...
This is what they wanted
Always to feel hunted
You can never be too rich or too...
Thin. The blood has run out.
Fangs ruin any cute pout
Morning has come now they've flown
What have you learned from what has been shown?

Nerd vs. Geek

Nerd - an intelligent but single-minded person obsessed with a
nonsocial hobby or pursuit

Geek - a computer expert or enthusiast (a term of pride as self-
reference, but often considered offensive when used by outsiders.)

USE THEM CORRECTLY PEOPLE!
It's not that difficult.
Nerds like learning. Geeks like technology. Simple as that.

Me? Well I'm one proud nerd!

♥Kay♥

April

It's been quite awhile since I've last posted on here. :) musical is said & done. I miss it. Things are going on, too many to name! For now, a poem.

Change these awful memories,
Rid me of this pain,
Get me through this time & day,
Turn this into gain.

~Kay

Angel Quotes

[Gunn: "and what am I supposed to do? Sit home and knit?"
Angel: "I could use a sweater"]

[Cordy: (to Darla) "You're our prisoner."
Wes: "I'd have to concur with that, yes
Cordy: see? You've got our friend all in knots."
Wes: "Can't say we like you much."
Cordy: "So, sorry about the dying, but if you try to escape we will
hit you..."
Wes: "On the head..."
Cordy: "With large and heavy objects. K?"] The Trial

♥Kay♥

Explanation

This explains a whole bunch, doesn't it?

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray 
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

♥Kay♥

Bahhhhh!

I'm SUPER tired and things are getting to me. I need to calm down haha XD oh well. I'm hoping maybe that the dance will be incredibly amazing and I'll have a wonderful time but I'm nervous. I don't think it'll go very well, actually, I think it's gonna suck. This really bothers me. I'm just going to try to make the best of it and hopefully things will be alright. :) toodles!

♥Kay♥

Saying

I miss you, then I remember what happened, and I feel all better. :)

♥Kay♥

Lots

A lot of things have been going on. I'm sick now. It's sucks lol. Oh well I'll get better soon, hopefully.

Take my love, take my land, take me where I cannot stand. I don't care, I'm still free, you can't take the sky from me. Take me out, to the black, tell 'em I ain't comin' back. Burn the land, and boil the sea, you can't take the sky from me. There's no place I can be, since I found Serenity. You can't take the sky from me.

♥Kay♥